I know what I'm supposed to set my mind on. Better yet, "who" I'm supposed to set my mind on. But in my humanly nature my mind is not always set on what I know it's supposed to be. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE the Lord and know without Him, "I could do nothing." I'm reminded from my childhood years, my dad playing this song on his guitar: "Without Him, I could do nothing
Without Him, I'd surely fail
Without Him, life would be worthless
Like a ship without a sail."
You see that song didn't really HIT HOME till I got much older. As a kid I remember listening to my dad sing that song and I'd try to join my voice in harmony. TRY is the key word. Not realizing later in my adulthood life I'd still be TRYING. Not to join my voice in harmony....that comes easy now. Rather, trying to join my life in harmony with the power in the words of that song. That song is so TRUE. When my dad would sing that song, I could hear the passion in his voice. Sometimes the shaking of it while he'd try and hold back his tears. My dad's the strongest person I know....but words such as the ones mentioned above hit a person's soul....you can't help but get a "shaking" in your voice.
I'm thankful for those "mornings" I'd wake up and hear my dad strum the strings of his guitar. But more so, I'm thankful for the songs he'd sing with passion....probably never realizing his daughter in the next room would later in her adulthood life hold on to those words for dear life.
Thanks Daddy!
Heidi's Random Head thoughts:
1. When am I going to start packing for Alaska?
2. What will life be like with a 4th princess. 15 weeks prego and feeling good!
3. I wish I could claim onto a parable in the bible that even so slightly mentioned, "the miracle of the laundry pile!" I don't even want to go there.
4. Thinking about next week's trip to Alaska. Looking forward to it.
5. Who can I ask to watch the girls while I get my hair trimmed?
6. I want to memorize more scripture. I need to! Someday, (if I ever get alzhiemer's) I want my mind to remember what I memorized most....the Word.
7. I'm praying for our mortgage person to call us with the best news. Do it Lord!
8. I want to watch the new Madea movie...without any kids. OK..maybe just Braxtyn.
9. Need to give my dog Louie a bath. He's in desperate need.
10. Love listening to soft christian music while my girls are louder than HECK.
2 comments:
Hello Mrs. Heidi,
I just wanted to say thank you for coming to the Winter Escape in Fairbanks. I really enjoyed worship time and I got a lot out of this mini camp that you and Pastor Mark came to. I've always known that God has had huge plans for my life, but as I went into high school I pushed God and his plans to the back burner as grades, band, my boyfriend, and my friends moved up on my priority list. I still went to church activly but I didn't feel as connected to God and like Pastor Mark said this weekend, I would experience spiritual highs and low. One time when I was in one of those lows I felt like I never came back out. I was stuck and I couldn't pull myself out. Then I found out that we were moving to Alaska. At first, I was devastated. I cried and cried and thought, "God, how could you do such a thing to me? Everything is perfect where I'm at. Do you want me to be miserable?" But one night during a youth service while I was still in Texas, I heard the voice of God telling me that I have been running away from him and rejecting him. That I knew what I was supposed to be doing but I wasn't. I was practically spitting God in the face, but then he told me that he wasn't going to give up on me. That he wasn't going to let the Devil get ahold of me. He said that if the only way to get my eyes set on him was to move me to Alaska away from all the distractions that held me from him that he was going to do it because he loved and cared for me. When I did get here I felt really lonely and bitter against God. I knew that he did this for my best but I didn't want what he wanted. I thought that what Courtney wanted was the best not what the all powerful God wanted. But at this camp he told me that he loved me and that I wasn't alone. When I need someone to run to, he was there. When I needed to be held, he was there. When I needed a shoulder to cry on, he was there. I just feel so much better and I'm really excited for the plans that God has for me and for the youth of Alaska and I believe that a revival so big is going to happen in Alaska that not only will the U.S.'s eyes be on us, the entire world's eyes will be on us also. So thank you for all that you've done and all that you're going to do.
God Bless,
Courtney Graham
Fairbanks, AK
P.S. Sorry that this comment is so long I just needed to tell you how much you and Mark blessed my life. (:
Courtney girl...You are an amazing young lady. You hold such a beauty about yourself and it's not only on the outside. God has instilled a breath taking countenance IN you. Don't lose that. It's his spirit in you.
I will cherish your long comment to me..because I know one of my daughters will feel the same you did and I'll be able to share it with her. I'll be able to tell her, "You're not alone." But, God has a plan. Just BE STILL. You hold in there little lady! IT's worth every bit of it! Love ya - Heidi
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